Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Grace

grace in her fingers
her thoughts percussing
from keyboard to screen

grace in her colors
riotous pink hair
and splotches of alabaster
adorning her limbs

grace in the moment
when the teapot drags with exhaustion
but she lifts it anyway
to pour me a cup

grace in her shoulders
which will soften beneath my lips
when the work of the day is finished

it is then I will whisper a love song
to remind her once again of my reverence
for the woman whose every movement
lays grace upon my hearth

Friday, October 24, 2014

Walking to 7 Eleven

water clinking melodically down the gutters
a truck rolls its tires on the curb, reverses and starts again
the tabby cat is absent from the neighbor's window

these things I notice
while hurtling through space
at 66,600 miles per hour

Monday, September 29, 2014

My Woman Made of Star Stuff

For Amie.

my woman made of star stuff
drops galaxies within me
where they burn and swirl in sync
with the rhythm of her step

my woman made of star stuff
catches the lamplight
in the crook of her elbow
inviting me to kiss her just there

my woman made of star stuff
wraps her lanky limbs
around my pudgy frame
and makes me beautiful

my woman made of star stuff
refuses, REFUSES to watch movies
in anything but their original format
going pink with passion explaining this

my woman made of star stuff
weeps with heartbreak
and honors me by letting me comfort her
when life flops to the floor in tatters

my woman made of star stuff
moves with sweet defiance
through a world of hostility
rather than hide in safety

my woman made of star stuff
drops galaxies within me
where they burn and swirl
and etch her name
into the fabric of my space
the breath of my time

Saturday, August 16, 2014

On Being Depressed

living a full life anyway
means knowing that when I love
I'll sometimes feel like dying
but opening my heart nonetheless

living a full life anyway
means dragging myself through inertia
just to get showered and dressed
and then putting on lipstick, goddammit

living a full life anyway
means sometimes being the jackass
who took on very little
but found it too much and bails out

living a full life anyway
means sleeping in my car some nights
because climbing the stairs to the apartment is bullshit
after my daily energy has run dry

living a full life anyway
means needing others
in a deeply exposing way
and feeling unworthy of their help

living a full life anyway
means sitting in meditation
not for tranquility
but for survival

living a full life anyway
means taking it personally
every time a friend or stranger
dies of the same disease

living a full life anyway
means knowing this may kill me
but deciding to fight hard
with teeth bared in defiance

living a full life anyway
means always fearing
that I've built a house of cards
that will topple as it's done before

living a full life anyway
means decorating those cards while I have them
placing them with care
and screaming into the wind
"Come fuck with me. I'm ready."

Sunday, August 3, 2014

A Devotional

a bucket of flowers on the grimy floor
blossoms straining apart
as though polarized against their fellows
each one already dead
the days of budding have passed
a vanishing ode to summer

she knows where she put the summer
she drags the bucket across floor
this year she's let go as the days have passed
and the hours have easily coalesced and come apart
an insect falls from a petal, dead
an infinity away from its garden fellows

she doesn't notice the insect, doesn't consider its fellows
just opens the door to admit an inch more summer
and observes the surreality of not being dead
most things that ever lived have already hit the floor
their atoms have drifted apart
and what they became has likewise passed

for her 29 years have passed
each day gathering behind her with its fellows
present and past cleaving the world apart
flowers and insects flit through this summer
as she sweeps the dirt from the floor
each moment, once lived, drops dead

now that she's used to the dead
she doesn't regret what's passed
or focus on anything but mopping the floor
just as later she'll focus on one of her fellows
a lover whose lips are made of summer
who tears preoccupations apart

finished, she pulls a flower apart
its flesh feeling anything but dead
these colorful slices of summer
carry the light and wind that passed
growing them and their fellows
the petals land on the newly-cleaned floor

her bare feet kiss the petals, the floor
footprints joining their fellows
leading away from what has passed

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Adding Rings

the sun dipping low
highlights the trunks of tall trees
hinting at the need
for structure, consistency
continuous unfolding

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Summer Rain

an abrupt downpour
sends freshness barreling in
the open front door